My Sunday posts are my spiritual posts, and I speak with a Mormon perspective. For those of you that are not comfortable with this, I recommend that you read my entries I post during the week.
Last week I made two huge goals—one was to get up at 5:00 a.m. every morning and another was to read the Book of Mormon in one month.
It’s so hard to strike that balance—-trying to reach my full potential while not pushing myself too hard. I tend to err on pushing myself too hard which often means I don’t mean my goals, and I feel like a failure.
I didn’t reach accomplish either one of my goals this week. However, I did get up around 5:00 on four of the days and got up at 6:00 the other three days, and you know what? I feel really happy with that achievement. I think that getting up at 5:00 is a little unreasonable for the weekends, and there was one night I didn’t great sleep and getting up at 6:00 seemed justified. I found that I got tired earlier at night, and it was easier to fall asleep earlier.
I feel I had a much better handle on my week as I gave myself that extra hour to get spiritual perspective and plan my day. I found it very validating to plan my day because I began to understand why I often don’t get everything done that I want to do. My expectations have been impossible. So now I am getting better at delegating and dropping certain items on my to do list. Prayer is really important with this. I think I will share some of these routines with my husband so I can get his perspective on my priorities.
|Practicing piano with my children is one of my life’s joy, but I still have to decide how much can actually do with them on a daily basis.|
Last night, I wrote a thank you e-mail to my mother-in-law and gave her an update about all of of the things my children are doing. I was astounded at how much each of them are doing as well as how much time they are needing from me. I also mentioned things I want to be doing with my children that I haven’t had time to do. My mother-in-law wrote me back some wise counsel, and I realized that even with my children, who are such a high priority in my life, I cannot do it all. There are things I’m going to have to delegate and things I’m going to need to drop. I figure that one thing that might help me is to just ask each of my children what their priorities are and how I can help them reach their goals.
Finally, I read this week in the Book of Mormon, but not what I had wanted to do. However, I feel peace with this. I feel grateful for what I was able to read and grateful for the peace and direction it gave me this week. I hope that I might be able to do some catch up on the weekends and maybe have some time during Thanksgiving, but I still don’t know if I will be able to finish by the end of the month.
One thing that I really loved doing was listening to the scriptures on my phone as I read. The reader’s voice was deep and soothing, and I found that just listening to him gave me a sense of assurance and faith.
I know the Lord understands that I’m doing the best I can and that even though I’m not perfect, he is pleased with me. I think that we as women often don’t realize that the Lord is very pleased with us. I need to take greater joy in all the things I am able to do with his help.